Raw.

This is not going to be eloquent or said in deep philosophical rhyme. It's just going to be raw.

Today sucked. Big time. Thing after thing after thing was being dumped onto my day, when finally... in sixth period, I had enough. I haven't been this angry in a long time. I let go of things quickly, forgetting they happened. I rarely am truly mad, being the optimist that I am. But I am really angry.

We talked in small groups today about friendship. As words were thrown around as to what a true friend is... I just wanted to cry.

God,
I am SO done! I just want to have ONE... ONE person that will stick with me. I am tired of working so terribly hard, just to be disappointed. I am tired of encouraging words that bite me in the butt. I'm tired of begging You for a person that will become a true friend. I'm so so tired, God. I know you will never give me more than I can handle... but this is getting rough. Mold me into the friend I need to be to glorify You. I know that in your timing you will give me a true friend that isn't ten hours away. In this waiting God, refine me. Because right now, I'm ready to crumble.