I realized this afternoon that I haven't had time in months to simply "Be Still." There is always bustling, rumbling, and running around... not to mention the endless amounts of studying :) I'm either buried in a textbook, memorizing notecards, driving to Caitlin's, driving back from Caitlin's, eating, decorating, dancing, playing games, walking like a zombie due to exhaustion, watching the kiddos, or sleeping. This is my life. Crazy, wild, hectic. Today, the second I woke up there was a list of "to-do's"....
1. Call Louise Elliot.
2. Do 6 loads of laundry. (I know, I know. It's bad... it builds up!)
3. Book a flight to see my grandparents.
4. Call Jen (This absolutely could not be cut out, though it may seem trivial)
5. Do dishes.
6. Write the fetal circulation paper for anatomy.
7. Pay the credit card bill.
8. Map out finals week.
9. Clean room. Thoroughly.
10. Finish filling out passport for Mexico.
11. Master lecture notes for anatomy.
..... I'm sure there is more, but this is all I can think of right now.
It was basically go go go go go go for 6 hours. I didn't get it all finished, but I knew I needed a break. I'm still sick, doped up on meds, and constantly exhausted... so I definitely needed to just chill.
The house is empty. I lit some candles. Turned on the Christmas tree lights, and my very favorite soothing Christmas CD... and I sat. I was still. I had nothing in my hands. Nothing I was trying to study. My phone was in the other room. I just "was." I was still. I was silent. I was contemplative. I am just thanking God tonight for stillness. For the moments He allows me to rest. To just sit in His arms and "be". This post is not eloquent or proofread, long and thought out. It's simple and un-edited.
I'm okay with that.
Try it sometime. Put everything aside. Praise Him.
"Fall on your knees... oh hear the angel voices... oh night divine."
mmmm..... STILLNESS.
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