It turned out to be a really bummer day. Gross head cold which left me only slightly thinking straight, I didn't get a job that I really REALLY was hoping for, and there has been an ever present nagging anxiety in my heart for a couple days that I haven't been able to shake.
YUCK.
It's been one of those days where I found myself berating the boys for berating each other. Such a saddening thing. In trying to teach them how to treat each other, I found myself modeling for them how not to treat each other. And for as much as I've been frustrated with their lack of tenderness for each other, I was so disappointed today when I realized my lack of tenderness towards them.
It was hard for me to swallow. I hate seeing my sin playing a part in someone else's actions. So what do I do about it??
I could continue to keep my eyes fixed on the sin and the struggle, continue to cling to the excuse that "I was just really tired" and "didn't feel good at all."
But nothing will ever change.
I serve the same God that Moses served. The same God that David and Daniel served.
Do I remember that??
If I keep my eyes fixed on the uncrossable sea, the giant in front of me, or the lions on my heels, I will never have victory.
I want to raise my hands like David and claim, "All those gathered here will know that it is not by sword or spear that the Lord saves; for the battle is the Lord's, and he will give all of you into our hands!" 1 Samuel 17:47.
But more than that, I want to believe it. trust it.
I am loved. I am blessed. and I can do all things through Christ.
I want to live this and breathe this into my family. my friends. the children.
Praying that every interaction would be God-breathed.
I believe that He has beautiful things in store. For His glory, and my good.
Love,
Lyss
"For you, O Lord, are my hope, my trust." ~Psalm 71:5
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