I get it.

After spending almost an hour searching Netflix for a movie to watch tonight, I realized something: 

Sometimes, I get tired of silver-screen love stories.

I roll my eyes. I cringe. I smirk. 

Because in real life? It doesn't always work out. and I'm tired of watching movies where it always does. 

Don't get me wrong: I have spent many many hours huddled up with friends laughing during those hilariously wonderful romantic comedies, grinning ear to ear. 

But I'm just tired of them right now. 

It's not a feeling of hopelessness. It's not a lack of trust in Jesus. It's just frustration. 

... and I can't find a movie I want to watch for the life of me. 

I'm at a place where it just feels impossible- not hopeless, not doubtful, just not logical. Where is this man going to come from? Will it be worth the sacrifices? What am I doing wrong? What am I doing right? How in the world is this going to work out?

In a movie, this is right where the plot would twist and a handsome knight comes riding in. In real life, this is where I go clean up puppy pee, throw in a load of laundry, and keep on going... but nothing changes. 

I have always tried to be transparent and honest in my writing. So even today, when these words feel immature, embarrassing, and fairly lame, I'm gonna go with it. 

I have some pretty amazing younger girls in my life right now that I get to love and speak into. and one of the things I've heard myself repeating over and over again is the importance of feeling the emotion in your heart- don't ignore it, don't blow it out of proportion, but feel it. 

So I won't wallow in this frustration. I won't wallow in the fear. 

But I will feel it. I'll name it. I'll recognize it and remember that this is a season with a purpose. 

So, if you feel that today, I get it. 

There is hope for you. and for me. 

This won't last forever. 

We're not forgotten. 

1 Peter 5:7, "Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you." 

Amen. 

You are loved, 

Lyss